The picture above may just look like a blue square but is a photo of the sky which I took while out on my (allowed) one dose of exercise this morning. This is due to the UK 2020 Coronavirus lockdown (in case you are reading this sometime in the future).

What prompted me to take a picture of a completely blue sky deliberately avoiding any other objects? Walking gives me a time to reflect and let my mind wander. I often have thoughts of the past and these can pop in my head from nowhere.

I want to share some further thoughts I have about this website I have recently set up before I get on to the main subject of the post. The idea is just to have somewhere to roughly record what I am trying to do at this time and I intend to keep it up when we are finally set free 🙂

I am starting to see that I’m only really posting content about what I’m doing and not addressing how I feel! This does go back to how I’ve always been. I would say that I’m fairly introverted but do enjoy peoples company when the occasions arise. I think the way I am makes it easy (to be honest) for me to entertain myself and cope fairly well with the new lifestyle we currently have to follow. I know some of my mates are finding it far harder!

I deliberately want to keep my identity fairly vague as hopefully things discussed can be thought of as more general to everyone rather than about a person of a certain demographic but I don’t suppose it wouldn’t take too much working out to get a general idea of my station in life 🙂 Needless to say, I’ve got a few more miles on the clock than I would rather have but that must never be a barrier to exploring and trying new things!

Anyway, so why the blue sky? A memory came into my head when I looked at it of a time when I worked in a local government office and I was around twenty years old. I hated the job, and to be perfectly honest, have not obtained much satisfaction from any other I have done during my working life. It has always just been a means to an end i.e. money!

So, the office had big windows and I would some times stare out of it on a nice summers day and look at the clear blue sky and think I could be under a blue sky anywhere in the world right now doing something else that really mattered to me. But really I was too scared to change things. I got my pay and could go to a pub and drink a few pints and daydream of a more exciting future!

I was involved with playing in bands at the time (and have had occasional forays ever since) but I was just too feckless to devote my full energies to making anything of it. In hindsight, I also let down talented fellow musicians in not applying myself the best I know I could.

So what am I trying to say? If you really want to do something, apply yourself 100% while you have the opportunity! Life is short……